I had a dream...

An angel came to me! She is the proverbial "vision of loveliness". In the beginning we share laughs, highlights and joy of moments of a new found relationship...the giggles and laughs of a teen-aged like bond.

As time went on the feelings and emotions grew...expanding into something more then just times of fun. A bond develops to make us realize that our hearts are becoming closer...like one. We share feelings and sensitivities that two people can only hope to reach in a lifetime.

We fall in love!!! Oh what a feeling that is!!!  To share thoughts, emotions and feelings with someone who not only thinks of herself but of me too...and for whom I do the same.  Someone who looks at the "us" in a relationship and sees the beauty and happiness of being close to someone who loves them.  In my dream we are one...a "whole"...sharing life and love and building the life we have always spoken of...a life filled with caring and sharing all the emotions two lovers should share.

What a dream! Holding each other knowing that throughout eternity we were meant to be together...that nothing would stand in the way of having the happiness we were destined to have!

I awoke this morning at 3AM. I sat in the dark in my living room. As I sat there drinking my coffee I started feeling depressed and alone for I realized...

It Had Only Been A Dream!

The Notting Hillbillies - Feel Like Going Home

I had originally intended to write my blog about how relationships can change at a moments notice...how tings can seem so good at certain points in time then seem to change at the drop of a hat!

Instead I will only say the Karma has a strange way of changing life to make you realize that the opportunities you hoped and dreamed for may never have really existed in the first place.

I am beginning to hate Fate!

Good Night All!

Well things seem to be going along fine...almost!

Sometimes I feel that I am being given mixed signals. One day we are as close as we ever were then the next it's as if the distance continues to widen.

Just Karma!

A friend came back into my life recently! I missed her! There are many things I should have told her that I didn't over the years like...how special she is to me, how important our relationship was and still is, how meaningful my life is with her in it.  No, I didn't let her know these things and it caused problems that can't be corrected.

We had a bond that, no matter how bad any situation was, always made us stay together...always had us coming back together!

Well, she's back again and my heart is overjoyed! There are many things I have told her since her return...probably shouldn't have...but I know that if she ever leaves again she knows how I feel and have felt over these many years.

I let her down in the past and am trying to build that trust we once had. She shies away and we just can't seem to coordinate that "together" time we once had.  Can't really say I blame her though ...cruel things transpired in the past but I won't dwell on them in this blog.

Anyway, here's hoping that the forgiveness is in her heart and our "together" time will be more plentiful...for the good of the "us" that I know was meant to be!

Hopefully, I will be able to write brighter blogs in the future!

Wish Me Luck!

a day off...SO...I'm gonna relax by the pool and have a few Coronas and just relax today!!  WOOHOO!!!!   "bout time huh???

Summer's about half way finished and with over six weeks of vacation you'd think I'd take a few more days at least.  Maybe soon.  Still need to make it to the beach before all the warm weather disappears.But then there's way too much work to take care of. lol

So...any takers for the beach???  BWAHAHAHA

Hope everyone's summer is going great!  Enjoy it while you can! lol

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...had that "one" person that you just can't get out of your mind no matter how hard you try? You know...the person who always knew how to make you feel good...who could make your world seem so much better...who could make life happier no matter how bad it might look to you? And the one who decided to no longer be in your life? It just sucks doesn't it? When you hear a certain song or pass someplace where the two of you have been and it reminds you of a better time. Oh well...life just has to go on...maybe...

...and I'm excited as hell!!!  2 inches with a little ice!!!  WOOHOO!!!

Time to go play!!! 

Snow and ice everywhere...up to 2 inches thick in some places!  But then I love this stuff! I did manage to make it to a local ski resort with a friend (of course I didn't ski...something to do with a phobia of breaking bones...). Still had a hellva good time tho! So this week it's suppose to be in the mid 50's and all the snow and ice will fade away.  

Now don't get me wrong...I love the warm weather too but I prefer it to be warm enough to be at the ocean.  50 degree weather just doesn't cut it. lol

SO....if it MUST to be cold bring on the snow!!!

Anyway, hope everyone's week went well and I miss talkin' to the lot of ya!!!

Be Safe All!!!

A friend emailed me and I just realized that my last blog didn't quite sound right.  It was NOT my wedding nor my death. BWAHAHAHA!!!  As for the relationship...well...another story for another time.  Be safe all!!!